Thursday, January 14, 2010

Suzy Sunshine has left the building - my LIFE is ON MY NERVES!!!!

Do you ever have one of those days when one thing happens and you can just tell.......EVERYTHING is gonna get on your nerves that day?!!!
Really??  YES?!!!
well - today is gonna be one of those days for me.  I can already tell.  I have been outta the bed for approximately 2.5 hours and have had contact with......oh.......maybe 5 or 6 people so far......and I can feel it.  Every time someone opens their mouth - I wanna quickly put my hand over it for them and tell them to just shut it.  I mean really........ur just gonna annoy don't bother.  Slowly walk away......{snarl}
it's gonna be one of those days!

I hate days like that.  Usually I'm all happy sunshine and braggy about my life and how happy I am and how everything is going so great...blah blah blah......
Today - I'm just gonna vent........yup - that's what I'm gonna do.  (then I can be on my nerves too!)  HA!

here's the short list of things on my nerves right now........
  • I'm SOOOOOOOOOO over winter!!!  I'm tired of being cold, I'm tired of the freaking static, I'm tired of my hair sticking to my face!  I'm TIRED of being pasty white!!!!!!!  I crave the SUN!!!
  • I'm soooooooo over being a mom.  I love my boy - don't get me wrong.  But I'm so sick of being reminded EVERY day of all the things I have done wrong!  being a parent SUX MOST some days and today is one of those days where I feel like I have done NOTHING right.  We had a decent morning today, which after last night is like a miracle.... but after he got out at school this morning, I just wanted to cry for all the things I have done wrong.
  • I'm tired of being BROKE!  I'm 33 years old for God's sake.  At some point, don't you get to the point where you can PAY the bills when they are due out of the funds that you work your butt off for every day!  NOPE - not me.  I'm 33 years old and still feel like every day I'm robbing Peter to pay Paul and for WHAT?!!!!!!!!  I still can't get ahead.
  • which leads me to......I'm SICK of NEEDING to work TWO jobs!!  (Is 14 too young for a child to be forced to drop outta school and work full time......and pull some weight!???!!)  huh?  what??!!  Anyway - I have recently decided to start working at home again (transcription) - as IF I had the time or energy to do ONE MORE THING!!!!!  but when it's not an option - you just DO IT!  bring it on.
  • I'm REEEEEEEEEEEALLLY missing the gym.  I haven't been in a month and a half - PERIOD.  and I can ALREADY tell a difference.... in my attitude, in the way I feel, in the way I look..... BUT - as much as I preach that you have to MAKE time for the gym...... you can't ADD hours into the day and with work, and basketball, and taking on concessions, and blah blah blah.....there just aren't enough hours in the day.  So I lose the gym.  (who can PAY for it anyway?!!)
  • I HATE having to wait to see if I get into the ultrasound program in August.  I won't know until MAY!  MAY people.......that's like 4 months from now right?!!!  How the heck do you plan a life around the unknown???  ONE day at a time......  and IF I get in - then I have to worry MORE about money because the program is full time and what will I do about my job and health insurance and money and.... blah blah blah..... (I try not to get overwhelmed with that one...but I mean geeeeeeeeez.... sometimes, it's just too much uncertainty!)
I could continue......but the more I type - the CRAZIER you people will think I am!  as if you don't already!  So I'm shutting up and going back to my little solitary cave here in my office!  I hope you all have a freaking FABULOUS day.......  I'll just be hangin out here.......bangin my head on the wall.  Yeah.... I'm an excellent lets me drive slow on the driveway.... uh oh... five minutes to Wapner...

Tami G

PS - Par for the course today - ANOTHER thing annoying the CRAP outta me......I can SEE this is posted - it's on my blog.  And I can link it to facebook and twitter........BUT it's STILL not showing up in reader!!!!!!!!  SERIOUSLY........I'mma smack in the MOUTH!!!!!!!!!


MJ said...

ah sweet Tami, you are allowed to have witchy days - we all do.

You are a wonderful mom {{HUGS}}

Blogger has been stupid and not showing right for me either - grrr.

Remember, tomorrow is a new day!

Tattoos and Teething Rings said...

I've been on the same level lately. I took out my husband's old punching bag-thingy the other day and went to town on it. I suggest you also beat something up.

Hope things get better...

Shell said...

I don't know how it's possible to find the time, but if you can, you will feel better if you can get in some exercise.

Hang in there!

Candice said...

Vent away sweetie, that's what we're here for.

I know when I'm having one of those days I feel MUCH better when I exercise. It may not solve all of my problems, but I'm able to better function without the fear of getting thrown in the pen because I murdered someone. ;)

Scope said...

For a second there I thought you said you had to wait until August for your ultrasound! "Dam! That's kind of late in the pregnancy, isn't it?"

Hope that made you smile. Not want to hunt me down and kill me.

Tami G said...

Candice - and I thank God for you all listening every day! ha ha And yes - you are right - VERY right. I have to get myself back on an excercise routine. That is my goal for Monday. :)

Scope - HILARIOUS!!!!!! Thanks for the smile... I wouldn't hunt you down and kill you - I would send Cora ;-)

There's always a million reasons not to do something said...

I swear everytime I open your blog that we are twins separated at birth. we even have the same moods on the same day! vent away sister! :)

Allyson said...

hello my love!! oh how i've missed youuuuuuuu

i'm sorry you are so stressed out. sounds like you need a girl's night out. dammit!! why can't i live closer to you??!!

take a breath. you can do anything you put your effort towards. you ROCK my friend!


Nicole said...

Someone else mentioned it above, but beating the crap out of a punching back is totally therapy. I've gone to the gym a few times just to do some serious damage to one. Don't worry!!!

kys said...

You can't be perky Tami all the time. (I'm sure by now you're back to your old self anyway.)

I don't know how you work that much and parent your son by yourself. There are only so many hours in a day, girl.

Hang in there!

Anonymous said...

Tami, I know money needs run our lives. Bills show up in frigging clusters, even when I thought I didn't spend any money, it sucks.

Get into the ultrasound and become certified, you'll never have money problems again, unlimited opportunities!

Stay Sane, Secretia