Relationships are a funny thing - all of them.

We constantly poison ourselves and just about every relationship we are in.
Friends.
Boy/girl friends.
Family...
and ironically - our relationship with ourselves.

We constantly find negativity and neglect and poison, your flavor of choice, and we just dump it all around us.  Those that we love are always the ones that get hurt the most.  Oh - we always have the BEST of intentions and there is always some justification for why we do what we do - but all we do is damage. 
all around....

Preacher T and I have been married for going on 4 months now.  Right?!! 
Interesting....
4 months is not that long.... I know....
and people are still saying "So, how's married life?"
Even more interesting...
It's kinda like the question "how have you been?"
do you REALLY wanna know?
I mean REALLY????
Do we just smile and nod and say "Great.  Life is Great.  I'm Great.  Everything is just GREAT"
Yep.
That's what we do.
Because no one wants to talk about the poison.

People are funny
Relationships are funny.
LIFE is funny
Some days in a make me laugh kinda way.... and some days in a I wanna punch you in the face kinda way!

I could smile and tell you how happy I am
or I could tell you how many times I've wanted to walk away

I could tell you how lucky I am
or I could tell you how some days it's just too much

I could tell you that it's all I thought it would be
or I could tell you - it's nothing that I dreamed of


I could tell you love and passion are enough
or I could tell you that some days they just aren't even close.

I could tell you how easy it is when it's TRUE love
or I could tell you how hard it is BECAUSE its REAL love

I could go on and on about the sweet kind loving words
or I could stop you in your tracks with the secrets

I could tell you how it's always about us and making each other happy
or I could tell you about ALL the other things that push US to the bottom

I could tell you how the plans we had are all coming true
or I could tell you how it's NOTHING like we planned.

I could lie either way.

Do you REALLY want to know?

What's your poison of choice and who are you pouring it on?
Yourself?

ummmm.... I think I fell in love at lunch today!

Have you heard this song?
heard it on the radio at lunch today and had to share!
love the song
love the video
love his HAT
love his guitar strap
love his voice
LOVE that bass in the background harmonizing
aaaaaaaaand.........
LOVE THAT CAR!!!!!!!!!

Rock ON Jerrod Niemann
who IS this guy?????
and WAIT - is THAT Jamey Johnson???????

ok - after you watch the song video - watch the interview with this guy.
he sang ALL parts of the harmony in this song!
HELLO!??
I think I'm in love! ;-)

What will you leave behind?

Today's blog may sound a little morbid.  I don't mean it to be.
I mean for it to be a moment in time when you can think about all the good in your life and even all the mistakes you have made in your life.  I mean it to be a moment in time when you think..... when I'm gone from this world - what will I leave behind?  What will people say about me?  What will they remember about me?  What will my children say?  what will my friends say?
WHAT will they say at my funeral?

What will you leave behind?

I think our biggest legacy is what we leave behind when we are gone.  Granted - you make a difference EVERY day by what you do and what you say and how you act.... BUT when you are gone - how do you want to be remembered?
This should be some sort of motivation every day in how you live your life....
Are you bitter?
Are you hateful?
or are you happy?  and full of life and joy?
Are you the person that people hide from when they see you coming, or do people flock to you because they know you spread joy?

I don't know why - but I do think about this from time to time  (maybe not at all the times I SHOULD think about it! )  but today - it weighs heavy on me.
Not in a bad way - but in a way that makes me want to be a better person.

A better mom.

A better friend.

A better daughter.

A better sister.

A better girlfriend.

A better CHRISTIAN.

A better example.

Here's a little more food for thought....
I have picked out the songs I want played at my funeral.....
WHAT?!! - don't judge me - I like to plan ahead. 
And I'll be up in heaven watchin - so somebody better make this happen!!  ha ha

Lead me Home by Jamey Johnson
Now Comes the Night by Rob Thomas






How will YOU remember ME?


how do you want ME to remember YOU!????

Do you have songs picked out - or am I the ONLY crazy person out here??!

*crickets*

REALLY??!!!!!!