Someone approached me recently and said "ahhhh.... I love your look tonight. You're like Rocker Tami" I'm not gonna lie, it kinda threw me off guard. I'm sure the look on my face was priceless. As I stared back at this person, she continued on by saying, "you never know what to expect with you... sometimes your like the quiet innocent girl next door, and sometimes your smokin hot, and tonight your all rocker chic!"
I didn't realize I actually had different "looks"! LOL
So I got to thinking.......
Thank God I'm finally in my 30's and I can just be ME! That's it. I don't wear a mask, I don't pretend to be something I'm not. I just live my life trying to do the best I can and help as many people as I can along the way, but in the meantime, trying really hard not to sell out to anyone or anything. I'm just ME.
I dress how I want.
I act how I want.
I finally know who I am, what I want, what's important in life and the stupid little things that happen that throw existence into chaos... well - they just don't bother me as much as they used to.
I don't have to spend hours and hours trying to maintain some sort of image of who I want people to think I am. I just am.
Unintentionally, one day a rocker and one day the quiet girl next door.
Because inside aren't we a mixture of them all???
I'm so thankful to be past that point in my life where I need to "fit in" or pretend I like or don't like something just to "have friends"
If only I had known at 14 what I know at 34.
I guess that's the fun in life.
wearing the masks.....
and one day being comfortable enough in your own skin to lay down the masks and just be YOU.
You at your very BEST.
does it get any better than that?!
First - let me give you a little background (since I have yet to really divulge any info on the fam).......my family - well - we are all night owls and we are freaking idiots. Yeah - that's the basics... that's really all you need to know about us.... idiots!! (*insert picture - me, brothers and their wife & fiance after softball in the rain!) We love to laugh! I mean seriously - you get me, my son and my two brothers together and you would think we were all 10 again. Picking and laughing and teasing and just all around actin a fool - right?!?! I LOVE them! (sooooo many family jokes...I could write for days about that....)
Where was I? ok right - last Thursday night, at 11:30 PM I head out to my parents house to get some stuff together to wear to work on Friday (yeah - the night before...) cause we are dressing up for Halloween ( that's how we roll, I procrastinate; my parents are at the ballpark till all hours of the night watching my brothers play softball)
geeeeeeeez!
So - 11:30 PM - I arrive at the parents. Mom and dad are up but dad is REALLY wanting to go to bed. However, mom and I are rummaging in the closet trying to find something for me to wear (my mom has more clothes than God..wait - God doesn't have clothes...LOL - but you get the idea) AND I have my friend Denise and my boy with me just to throw in a little more chaos - cause I'm cool like that :) Next thing you know, the boy is running around in a dress my mom for some unknown reason thought that I could get into, that I wore for Easter when I was probably 10! My dad is flipping out cause the boy is in a dress and the boy is now threatening to wear it to school for Halloween!!!!!!! (seriously papa - calm down....LOL this just instigates the boy though! hee hee - don't know WHERE he gets that??!)
During all this - my baby brother (who still lives at home) has a boxer (in the bed with him) who has now heard all the comotion and is barking (it's midnight now at least....) next thing I know - baby brother comes rolling out with the dog to put her outside, we all have a little laugh while he grumbles something about having to be at work at 6AM. blah blah blah....he gets no sympathy from us.... cause like I said - that's how we roll ;-)
Somehow baby brother gets distracted from going back to bed (can you even imagine how THAT would happen, me trying on clothes, boy in a dress, dad doing laundry, Denise and mom yappin....) ANYWAY - the parents just got DVR a few weeks ago and baby brother now thinks its fun to play with the DVR box and show us he knows how to work it (which he didn't!!!) - ending up on some THUG LIFE music channel. This booty shakin thumpin now has me and the boys doin a little groove around my mom in the living room! (the "bumping" and dancing drives my mother batty!) LMAO! Then I remember not to long ago, the boy and I watched a tutorial on how to "JERK" This my lovely little friends is a lovely little dance done to the song "Jerk" - which I'm sure very few of you have even heard of! it's ok - you don't have to know WHAT it is to find the humor in it.... I proceed to get the boy to show them how to jerk! (it's now....oh maybe 1:00?? AM!!!) Ok - well the "jerk" is essentially the "running man" in reverse!!!!!! NOW are you with me.... I KNOW you guys know what the running man is right?!?!?
WELLL - far be it from me to not demonstrate for my momma who didn't know what that was. So 1 AM (on a work/school night) the boy, baby brother and I are at the parents doing a little dance!!! A little jerkin', a little runnin man, baby brother doin a little rappin........
FRICKIN hilarious!!!!!!!!
I told you ALL THAT - to get to this......
Here is the aftermath from the night of dancing at the parents:
Next day - I send baby brother a text (or facebook msg or something) saying that I could really use a lawn mowing if he might be available for that. He proceeds to tell me he would - but he would be really afraid he might fall asleep at the wheel since SOMEONE kept him and his dog up till all hours of the night! (snarl)
Then yesterday - i get the following video - with a note attached that says "you will appreciate this"!!
It's Hiliarious!!!
it's like 6 minutes long - but take the time to watch it and step back through the years of dance!!!!!!!
When it gets to the running man - give me a little shout out! LMAO!
and just for fun - if you remember it - get up and give it a whirl! =-)
I'm copying Sass over at the Life of Sass - I am making a list of the things I want for "Things I want Thursday"! :)
Today, I want:
1. One of my BFF's to walk away and close the door to a path that she does not need to be on or think about anymore. She fell in love with someone that is not worthy of her nor is he hers to have. I wish your broken heart to mend and I wish you love from someone that is worthy!
2. One of my BFF's to break ties. "If that boy don't love you by now...." You too my friend deserve so much more than that. =) I wish you strength and faith in yourself, don't give someone control over your emotions. I wish you strength to walk away and let HIM figure out what he wants in life and faith to know if he does truly love you, he will be back!
3. One of my BFF's to fall in love with everything she has. She has met a new boy that she is crazy about, and he might just be crazy about her too. She is usually very reluctant to open up and let someone in. I want for her to jump off the cliff and take a chance......you never know when that right man will show up to catch you!
4. For me.....to LOVE and be LOVED - & to be perfectly and completely happy in that =) YES - I do still believe in the fairy tale love :) *this will be on every list I ever make of things I want*
5. to find a Halloween costume.... actually TWO - one for work and one for going out! ha ha *and this is a subliminal message to my friend Kat - I NEED you Saturday night......good & evil girl! ;-)
6. to get into the Sonography program next fall........gonna start wishing and praying for that one now, every day & every night!!
Hmmmmmm - that's all I can think of today! I'm pretty much in love with my life right now... just mostly want everyone around me to be happy too =)
So today what I want the MOST is: luv and happyness to everyone!!
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