11 hours ago
Monday, January 18, 2010
It is so amazing to me that the ones you LOVE the most are the ones who can HURT you the most... unintentionally even. My son and I had a really tough night last night. He said lots of things to me... not to be intentionally hurtful - but instead he was sharing his honesty in how he feels I have hurt him. Now granted - he's 14 and emotional and has a skewed perspective on things that have happened in our lives as he's been growing up. BUT - even knowing all of that - his words can cut me to the bone.
I don't let him know that. He has a right to express his feelings too. So I listen.... and try to explain the best I can. THEN - I go to my room, shut the door and slowly let my heart break.
This morning was tough... recovering from a night full of tears and regret and heartache.
But - as always......when you are at your worst - God will send answers and healing; you just have to have faith and the patience to wait for it.
I'm not saying all my problems are solved, but I am saying - when I am at my worst, God gives me music and answers and he sends people to help heal that hurt.. and I know that everything is going to be alright.
2 things I'm sharing today.
First - I got a message from Adam today that said this: EVERYDAY GODS GRACE, LOVE AND MERCY IS SUFFICIENT FOR US. IT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH. ITS ALL IN THE PERSPECTIVE IN WHICH WE CHOOSE TO LOOK AT THINGS, FEEL THINGS, AND APPROACH THINGS.
He's right - and when you are sad and nursing a broken heart - it's nice to know that someone can remind you that you have lost perspective! ;-)
So - I'm passing on his message to all of you... when you feel sad and defeated, take a minute to step back and change your perspective...
The other thing I'm sharing is a song I heard today.
I put in the lyrics also.
Today - I just want to thank God for ALL the love in my life. God's love, Adam, my son (though I have to look a little harder to see that one - ha), my family, my extended family, and all my friends.
I hope the song touches you too and reminds you of all the love around you.... with that - you can get through anything.