Sunday, June 13, 2010

~Motivational Monday~ calling all my prayer warriors!

Happy Monday to all....

I've thought and thought and thought about how to approach this topic without offending or violating anyone... so here goes - I'm gonna try my best.

Some of you read my blog on blogger... some of you are personal friends... some of you follow via Facebook.  Some of you have followed since.... well - the beginning of my blog.. Some have followed since the beginning of me and Preacher T's story... you read THIS (part 1) and THIS (part 2) and THIS (part 3)... (I could go on and on with the story..cuz I've done LOTS of reading.. and re-reading.. and re-reading tonight of the old blogs...but you know it all - and I'm driving myself CRAZY!!)

If you know me personally or have seen on facebook, you know T and I have broken up.  {Insert BIG HUGE pouty face!}  It wasn't an ugly thing, there was not a big fight or violation of trust or cheating or anything done wrong on either part.  The last thing I want is for this to come off angry or bitter... because I'm not.  Disappointed, hurt and sad.. of course, but not mad.

The thing is...T has some things that he's dealing with... and they are things best left to him to handle.  (and not my load to share) Trying to do that, find himself and get on a path where he knows God is leading is hard for anyone.

So - I'm back to HERE (the single girl again).  Just me.  Again on my own... me and my big ol' broken heart....

And I guess I'm ok with that.  As ok as I can be.

Taking life one day at a time... one step at a time... 

So I leave you with this......  PLEASE keep me in your prayers.  Starting over from being at a point where I thought God had it all worked out is hard.  Moving on and letting go of someone that I still love with all my heart - and sadly know he loves me just the same is even HARDER.  I know this is "motivational Monday" - but I guess today - I just need a little motivation sent back my way.....

I know God has a plan... and I know it's outta my hands.  Accepting that and facing each new day is harder some days than others.

Also - please keep T in your prayers too.  He needs them also.

I love you all... and you have no idea how much reading your blogs and the comments you leave and the support and prayers you send make my day... 

If I don't say it enough.....thank you to all my friends, all my loved ones, all my facebook followers and all my bloggy followers!  :-)

"To walk with Him on a path where we cannot see the end from the beginning requires total trust. He promises a light for our path, but that light does not shine past the current footprint."

I still believe and have faith that something BIG and GREAT will come from this all - I just don't know for who.. or WHAT it might be......   FAITH!  :-)

7 comments:

Stacey said...

I am sorry you are dealing with this. It is hard to hand everything over to God even knowing we should! I am trying to learn that myself! I said a little prayer for you, and I know things will turn around for you soon! :)

singedwingangel said...

Sweetie let me say that God can bring restoration to anything. Never give up on your marriage especially if God brought you to it. My heart nad prayers are with you and know that God can do anything out of what seems to be nothing. You both love one another and I have been where you are nd stand on the other side to tell you God is a restorer ..

MJ said...

Tami love as soon as I saw this on FB I stopped & prayed for you girl & I will continue to keep you in my nightly one. It's ok to have tears, be hurt, confused, etc because you are not alone - He is right there holding & guiding you dear. Much love.

leigh said...

I'm so sorry to read this. Both of you will be in my prayers.

Whenever I suffered from a break up I would always watch the movie Swingers. Laughter is the best medicine and the ending is so hopeful!

Bethany said...

Praying for you, girlfriend. :)

Jennifer Cary said...

Tammy-You are an amazing inspiration to so many. We all face ups and downs in life and don't always understand why God is giving us these trials and tribulations. As hard as it may seem, we're not supposed to know. He has some amazingly awesome plans for you and He will open that door when He's ready. I have trust and faith that you will emerge a better person. Until then, we'll all pray for you.
Hang in there chickie!
Jennifer

Holly said...

I am so sorry you have to go through this when you thought it was all "right there." I will absolutely keep you in my prayers.