1 day ago
Thursday, September 6, 2012
I KNOW no fear
I don't know how to be afraid.
I don't WANT to be afraid.
I don't know if it's because I'm naive (a little..)
or because I have been through so much already that nothing scares me anymore! (probably....)
OR because my Faith in God is bigger than ANY fear here on Earth!!! (yes!)
After my most recent sky dive, someone asked me if I had any fear?? If there is ANYTHING that scares me???
....and it made me think.
I jumped from a plane - TWICE!
I have a weird "fear" of drowning - but I went snorkeling and loved it!
No - no I really don't
(ok - wait - other than public speaking..... which is rather ironic since my degree has an emphasis in communication, so really... conquered that too! kind of.....)
NO - I've never been held at gunpoint. NO - I've never been beaten to a pulp.
NO - I've never experienced anything horrifying out of my control.
And in those cases.... I'm sure I would be scared. More of the pain I think than fear for my life.
But as a general rule, I try to live life to the fullest. Not thinking about what horrible horrible things could "potentially" happen. I see the bright side. I try to live and have fun and make the best out of what little time we are given here.
And be adventurous!
But I'm a mom - I should fear for my son....right??
But I don't.
I worry and pray.... and pray.... and pray....
but I don't FEAR in the way that I consider it to be a "fear"
It's not that I DON'T want to fear for my son.... but I guess I know the world can be cruel and tough, but I know that God instills into us all a faith and a resilience to know that he is bigger than anything else. I've taught my son that. And I hope I have instilled within my son a confidence of knowing that he has a mother and a family that will be behind him. We love and support him - and knowing that he knows that, gives me a peace greater than any fear I could have for him.
So no - I don't FEAR for him..... I root him on. I encourage him. I fight for him. I teach him right from wrong. I teach him to treat others as you would want to be treated.
I worry when he drives. I worry about his future.
And I pray.... A LOT.
But I don't fear - I trust that he is in God's hands.
And I know when he makes mistakes, they are to LEARN from - and GROW from.... not to be afraid and lay down and die and DEFINITELY not to turn around and make the same mistakes over and over again...
I teach him to be strong.
As for me......
I live my life one day at a time.
I believe that God puts me where he puts me for a reason.
I believe he puts people into my life and takes them out of my life for a reason.
I believe that he has a plan for me.
I get up every day and do the best I can...
and if I jump from a plane... it's for fun.
Sure it's a bit scary when you back away and think too much about it.
So don't think about it.
But just the same as getting in a car every day....
just the same as taking a breath every day....
God has his hand on me. And if he's ready for me to come home - I'll go home. Out of plane, or asleep in my bed, or in a car accident on the Interstate.
He will take me no matter where I am
No matter what my plans.
And he will use it - to his Glory.
So no - I have no fear.
I believe just about anything is possible as long as God has his hand in it :))
That gives me PEACE beyond all fear!
PS - I squatted my own body weight last night!!! How many people (girls) do you know that can do THAT?!!
NO FEAR!!!! hee hee