I did a little prayin and alot of cryin and realized - Debbie Downer must DIE!!!!!!
(which by the way........crying is part of the healing process for me - WHY do guys NOT understand that?!!! sheeeeeeesh!)
Only a few short months ago I had so much sunshine that I didn't even NEED real sunshine to smile! God brought me Preacher T, I have the best family and girlfriends in the world, a great kid, a job... and on and on the list can go. But for some reason.....
my sunshine gotten hidden by clouds.
and GRAY!!!!!!!! (which I HATE!!!!!!!)
Last night T and I did quite a bit of talking..... and reality creeped into me.
I realized - I have turned into Debbie Downer.
I took my eyes off the sunshine and became bogged down with the technicalities of life! BOOOO!
Money has been tight *I can NOT even stress that enough* ....lots of decisions on the horizon.... a teenager at home.... the dog got sick...
It's just been up and down and up and down and at some point - I guess I got sick of fighting for the "ups" and settled on a "down"
I'm currently reading Beth Moore's book "Get out of that Pit" - and ironically - while READING it, I have settled into my very own little pit.
A friend of mine sent me this scripture this week.
I have typed it up, printed it out and it now hangs on my computer screen - along with other copies that will be pasted in my truck, on my bathroom mirror and any other place I can find to hang it.
I want to share it with you today.
(I'm not getting TOO much into my "personality trait" that has pushed me over the line to Debbie Downer, because I have a lovely
[2 Corinthians 12: 7-10]
(7) To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. (8) Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. (9) But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. (10) That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Last night - I decided, no I REMEMBERED.... God's shoulders are bigger than mine. He is bigger and better and stronger than me........so all this stuff I have been carrying around, I'm unloading on him. I'm trusting that HE will take care of me. He always has. WHy would I ever doubt that?????? HE has a plan and reasons for everything - why do we question that??
I feel as though a ton of bricks have been lifted from my life. I can't find the words to describe that!
I would also like to share a song with you today. It's Craig Morgan and it's called "God must really love me"
It's kinda old - but I just ran across it lately and I can NOT get enough of the words.
I hope you will listen, enjoy and I hope in some way, this post helps lift a little burden off of you today too :)