Thursday, April 1, 2010

Debbie Downer Died last night....

I have put her to rest.

Period.

I did a little prayin and alot of cryin and realized - Debbie Downer must DIE!!!!!!
(which by the way........crying is part of the healing process for me - WHY do guys NOT understand that?!!!   sheeeeeeesh!)

Only a few short months ago I had so much sunshine that I didn't even NEED real sunshine to smile!  God brought me Preacher T, I have the best family and girlfriends in the world, a great kid, a job... and on and on the list can go.  But for some reason.....
my sunshine gotten hidden by clouds.
and rain.
and GRAY!!!!!!!!  (which I HATE!!!!!!!)

Last night T and I did quite a bit of talking..... and reality creeped into me.
{cringe....}
I realized - I have turned into Debbie Downer.

I took my eyes off the sunshine and became bogged down with the technicalities of life!  BOOOO!
Money has been tight *I can NOT even stress that enough* ....lots of decisions on the horizon.... a teenager at home.... the dog got sick...
It's just been up and down and up and down and at some point - I guess I got sick of fighting for the "ups" and settled on a "down"
I'm currently reading Beth Moore's book "Get out of that Pit" - and ironically - while READING it, I have settled into my very own little pit.
NO MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A friend of mine sent me this scripture this week.
I have typed it up, printed it out and it now hangs on my computer screen - along with other copies that will be pasted in my truck, on my bathroom mirror and any other place I can find to hang it.

I want to share it with you today.

(I'm not getting TOO much into my "personality trait" that has pushed me over the line to Debbie Downer, because I have a lovely horrid little post to share with you on Tuesday of next week via T&TR's fun little bloggy prompt - which by the way, I would encourage you to participate in!)

[2 Corinthians 12: 7-10]


(7)  To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.  (8) Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. (9) But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.  (10) That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Last night - I decided, no I REMEMBERED.... God's shoulders are bigger than mine.  He is bigger and better and stronger than me........so all this stuff I have been carrying around, I'm unloading on him.  I'm trusting that HE will take care of me.  He always has.  WHy would I ever doubt that??????  HE has a plan and reasons for everything - why do we question that?? 
I feel as though a ton of bricks have been lifted from my life.  I can't find the words to describe that!

I would also like to share a song with you today.  It's Craig Morgan and it's called "God must really love me"
It's kinda old - but I just ran across it lately and I can NOT get enough of the words.
I hope you will listen, enjoy and I hope in some way, this post helps lift a little burden off of you today too  :)

6 comments:

singedwingangel said...

OH Hun as a fellow depression sufferer I hear ya. My favorite book of the bible is Psalms cause David so got it. He has literally been there done that and wrote the book for those of us who have faced most mental issues of depression, anxiety and fear. Psalm 91 is the absolute best and is the one I would recite aloud when I felt a panic attack sneaking up on me..

Tabatha said...

thank you for this post... sometimes its nice to know I am not the only one. then I to remember that GOD is the one in control.. and I love your picture you posted for this blog!

Tattoos and Teething Rings said...

I think the hardest part is realizing you are in a funk and wanting to change it, so you're already ahead of the game there!

And thanks for the shout out :)

Matty said...

I am always trying to remind myself to keep a positive attitude regardless of the situation. There is always someone else worse off and with bigger issues than me. Another way I like to see things is.....will this matter in 10,000 years?

Hang in there.

Kellyansapansa said...

Just a though - maybe you could change the colour of your blog background as a remember to stop living your life in the gray? We all have those days, but positive affirmation can help heaps!

Secretia said...

No more down days for you!
That's good, I'm glad.