I love getting comments on my blogs. Not everyone follows me on blogger so I also post my link on facebook & sometimes I get comments on facebook too!
So I just wanted to give a shout out to my facebook followers and share a comment I got this afternoon.
"just know that I have had a few pretty bad days and everytime I read your blog I feel much better. Oprah ain't got shit on you girl! :)"
THANKS BRIAN!!!!
And thanks Jennifer for letting me know you read! =) Start blogging girl - it's great therapy AND you never know what you might say that might make someone's day! (plus you never know what you might READ that just might make urs!!)
I can think of NO greater compliment than to know that something I have said or done or experienced has helped someone else in some small way!
Thanks for making me smile 8-)
In life, it's all about learning as you go.
Today - I learned something else about myself.
I know I have said before that life is full of gray...you know - those times when you are not really in the black or white, not really on one side of the fence or the other......You are instead walking on the tight rope in between the two. This area that I lovingly refer to as the gray. (I hate the gray...)
THIS my friends is where I claim to spend most of my life! LOL
And it drives me absolutely bonkers!!
BUT truth be told - I don't spend much time in the gray because I hate the "not knowing" so much that I generally hurriedly make a decision.....whether I made an educated or good one is always a toss up!
The difference in me today though is that I am learning to embrace the gray.
The gray is not there to taunt me... it's not there to hold me.....(I will repeat this to myself in the mirror every night before bed - ha!) it is instead there to make me learn things as I go so that I make the RIGHT decision! I mean hello! Anyone can pick a side in any event. But don't you wanna take the time to spend in the gray learning about BOTH sides so that when you do make the choice, you know you've made the right one!
OHHHHHHH - the conversations I have had with my mother about being sooooooo frustrated in dating because I felt like the guy kept me in the gray all the time. JUST PICK A SIDE dude! You either want to date or you don't - right?!?! Stop with the back and forth and back and forth and MIXED SIGNALS! And my lovely mother would say every time.....Tammy, just be patient, the answer will come when the time is right. (I love my mom!) This made me want to scream every time she would say it! ha ha BUT - just as my mother said... every time, the answer DID eventually come and thank the Lord above that I waited out those times...it's amazing what you learn about someone over time... when you are patient (oooops - a virtue I lack) and stop searching so hard! (those stories are for another blog on another day!)
**let me make a sidenote here: while I'm not an avid astrology follower, I AM an Aries and trust me when I say - I contain EVERY personality trait characteristic of an Aries....."Aries live life head first; after all, those horns on your head are not just for fighting. Your headstrong nature can make you a "battering ram" and woe is the person who stands in your way. Aries are noted for courage primarily because you are nearly always ready for action. The need for excitement pushes you into new territory -- and as long as you are ahead of others while demonstrating confidence, chances are that they will follow you. As self-ordained leader of the pack, Aries fight for what you believe to be important. But it's not that Aries are fearless. Your courage is more of a commitment to face your fears and overcome them.Aries motto is "Ready, fire, aim!" It may be backwards for others, but you'd rather figure out what to do while you are doing it. While others are gathering information to make informed decisions, you are already on your way.
See - I'm just not wired to be comfortable in the gray! LOL I am notorious for growing wildly impatient while waiting for some kind of decision to be made!
Anyway - the point of today's blog is this: after a very enlightening conversation with someone who has quickly (and unexpectedly) become a pretty special person to me - I realized - the gray & the unknown, although scary, are not so bad after all! The gray is in fact, very crucial in EVERY aspect of life. Not just in dating, but in friendships, work, raising children...etc. I'm learning to embrace the gray and face my fears (don't tell anyone I just admitted to having fears) and even though it may not be in my genetic make up - I'm vowing to try to take the time to enjoy the journey.....not just jump to a destination just to have a place to land. That place usually turns out to be a place I didn't want to be anyway...
Life isn't just black and white........and it isn't all gray either!
Thank goodness we also have COLOR =)
Now - for my song today - I was going to do some "Color me Badd" BUT in looking for Color me Badd, I came across Boys II Men and GOSH - I just couldn't resist some Boys II Men! But THEN I heard today that Randy Jackson produced the new Boyz II Men single...a cover of "open arms" by his old band Journey. THIS: Boys II Men, Journey & Open Arms - WOW!
(yes friends, THIS is how my brain works!)
Sitting at the doctor's office this morning with my son, I thought I would catch up with everyone from the weekend. (and it IS Monday - so I need a treat to get me going......something to make me smile on Monday!)
What I thought was going to be a pretty relaxing weekend turned out to be busy as usual for me. Friday night was ok; put in my fifth day at the gym for the week, 2 trips to the mall (thinking of new clothes always makes me smile!) & a pit stop to help my friend with some preparation for Jr Miss. My son stayed with a friend so I had a friend over for (late) dinner and some tv. Got to sleep just in time to get back up and spend Saturday morning working an auction.....in the rain - YUCK! I did love getting to spend some time with my friend Colette though - who is just about ready to explode with this child she is carrying.... she is SUCH a cutie preggo =) She also brought along her 3 year old daughter to hang with us while we were working, she is very close to the age of my niece and they are just so flippin cute at that age. You just never know what might come out of their little mouths! The little cutie and I took several trips down the street to the potty and each time after I sat her on the toilet, she would tell me "now - go outside the door" SO cute!! (insert smile - I need lots of those on Monday mornings!) After the auction I met a couple of the girls for lunch and then back home for a nap. Saturday night I spent watching Jr Miss. For those of you who don't know what that is - it is kinda like a pageant only the girls are judged ALSO on grades, fitness, and they each do a private interview with the judges that is also graded. Like other pageants, they are also judged on poise and each has to perform an individual talent too! VERY entertaining. But of course watching these adorable little 16ish year old high school girls, always makes me reminisce back to MY high school days and think about all the things I would have changed if I had known what I know now! ( I know I know, it's so cliche - everyone says that.....) So after the show, as I wasn't feeling so well, my son and I stopped to pick up a movie and headed home. About half way through the movie I got a phone call from a friend needing a ride home.......so at around 1AM I'm out making my rounds (which let me point out I don't mind to do AT ALL! I would MUCH prefer the phone call come, than worry about any of my friends out trying to get themselves home after a night out on the town - if you know what I mean). Finally make it back home and try to finish watching the movie (WHY do I do this to myself?!?) So that I can turn right back around and it's time to get up for church. Even got to get up earlier to prepare food to take as we were having potluck outside after the service! (My lovely charming child however did NOT get up with me and would now be grounded from all electronics for the week - just a sidenote!) The plus side is that after church, I did finally get out to see my parents and family whom I felt like I haven't seen in months! We took a nice field trip to the farm and I got to see the new baby cow, some new chickens, the most precious little kitten EVER (whom I almost took home with me after swearing I will never have another animal INSIDE my house again!) and the weather could NOT have been any better for it!
Last night I spent cleaning house as I'm having a jewelry party for my sister in law on Thursday night - AND did some catching up on DVR! Stayed up WAY too late before a Monday morning........so I'm D-R-A-G-G-I-N-G today!!!!!!!!
Therefore - I am posting some things to make me smile and a FUN song.... and hopefully getting this Monday morning started!
Happy Monday everyone!
Enjoy!
....the cutest kitten ever =) & Cutie pies babies that joined us for the auction (that we had to take a picture of) and then the sweetest funniest video out there right now! SMILE REAL BIG!!!!!!!
Last night was my "big night" at the gym. I have been going for about 4 months now. I have worked really extra extra hard this week knowing that Thursday night would reveal what I have accomplished over the past 4 months. I do weigh every time I go in and I have lost a total of about 9 pounds. So I know I have done something - but last night was measurement night! How many inches? how much body fat? it's like the report card of the gym for me.
Let me first point out - before 4 months ago - I didn't do the gym. No time, no patience, no desire and I've never really felt like I needed to go THAT bad. HOWEVER - boy was I wrong. Physically I was in horrible shape and I found this out really quickly after starting.
ANYWAY - results are in: lost 1 inch off my waist. 1 inch off arms. Gained in the hips/butt area - thanks to the 75Million lunges - ha ha. Calves are the same. Lost in the chest. And I have lost somewhere between 2-4% body fat! All in all a good report....making progress..moving in the right direction towards "getting toned"!!! SO - post measurements and work out for the night, in the true spirit of being my own worst enemy AND my own most critical judge, I left the gym and cried the entire way over to my girls' house! Yes Yes - I do realize I have made progress - but I guess I just expected more from myself! I get so freaking frustrated with myself....I am my biggest critic!
After a brief visit with the girls, I proceeded home to find my child upstairs playing video games where he had been all night; house a wreck and dog outside in the rain!!! Needless to say - I have had better nights!
THIS MORNING however, when I got up - I realized what a freaking baby I'm being! EVERY day we have a choice........I could choose to let this get me down and get frustrated & quit OR I could choose to be HAPPY about what I have done! I'm in MUCH MUCH better shape today than I was 4 months ago! Overall isn't that what we all want!
This leads me to my song of the day - a little white stripes to get you going!!!
every day..... BE LIKE THE SQUIRREL! haha
You can do anything you put your mind to doing!! One of my biggest attributes and maybe one of my biggest flaws at the same time is - I BELIEVE I CAN DO ANYTHING!!! it's GREAT in that it pushes me to new things almost every day! it's bad though because I get so dang frustrated when I can't be the best at everything right out of the gate!
It takes work and determination........so today - like the squirrel - I have a newfound determination to set and REACH goals at the gym. David (my trainer) told me last night.......you can't just physically be ready - you have to be mentally and emotionally ready too! Maybe this reality check (the numbers) was just the push that I needed.
No beating myself up any more about where I am......I know physically I have reached goals and I know if I just keep pushing myself - I WILL only get better! ;-)
SHOUT OUT to David at Get Toned Fitness!!! If anyone is in or close to Bowling Green KY and needs a good place to work out and someone to push and motivate you every time you are there - look him up!! THX DAVID!!!!!!! http://www.gettonedfitness.com/
So - a fellow blogger posted a song today that I have ABSOLUTELY fallen in love with!!!!!
( http://glamgirloutandabout.blogspot.com/ ) SHOUT OUT!
When I read her blog about the song - a reference to "goosebumps" was made. I'm NOT kidding when I say - almost immediately after starting the song, there they were, on me, real live goosebumps!!! =)
I know that everyone has their own interpretation of music and that is why music is SOOO amazing and powerful for me. 10 different people can listen to a song - and you amazingly enough almost ALWAYS make it your own. You personalize it - relate it to your own life......the phrase "this song is ABOUT me" comes to mind! =)
So - I have decided to try to post a song daily......something new, something old, something fun, something weird - Whatever! All dependent on my mood at that time!
I'll share my personal attachment to each and please feel free to share with me how the song touches you (IF it does.....and I realize that not all will!!!)
Today's song:
This song makes me think of that BIG gigantic WALL that I have built around myself! I know we have all had rough patches in our lives, but over the years - although every girl (admittedly or not) truly SEARCHES for love - eventually you get jaded enough that you really ARE ok by yourself! I'm tough.... I pay my own bills, buy my own house, do what I want when I want - right?!?! And you convince yourself that you don't NEED anyone else in your life!
However, as my lovely friend (who shares and understands my wall) pointed out to me today when I shared the song with her she said, "Tammy, your heart is set on finding real love. I don’t care WHAT kind of a “wall” you build and try to hide behind." And it's so true! I am 33 years old and have the best friends a girl my age could ask for - and IRONICALLY - we are ALL single, independent, hard working girls. We have each other so we have built walls to the outside world.... But when it comes down to it - we all know deep down .......maybe "two is better than one"
I can't wait to know what that REALLY feels like =)
I can't wait till that wall is completely gone and I truly have my "two is better than one" man!
Let's face it - we were born to be two - so why do we fight it so hard?
Maybe because we are scared??
YES, there’s always the chance of getting hurt. But heck, once you have been through enough you know that no matter what - YOU WILL BE FINE! God gives you trials in life in order to make it that way! =)
And while two might just be better than one, the hard part is finding the "one" that completes your "two"
This is why some nights.... it's easier to just be one.
OK - I can't even begin to type ANYTHING about this - other than..........I'm laughing my butt off right now! Yes - OUT LOUD!!!!!!! This is officially going to be my new favorite show this fall!
Watch the preview for CougarTown!
...........Coming from a 33 year old SINGLE mother - I LUUUUUUUUV it!!!!!!!!
OK - here is how my warped mind works....this is how one thing leads to another and leads to another with me!!
Last week sometime, I read a blog about some place contemplating banning kissing because of the H1N1 flu - right?!? So I leave a comment and go on and on about how GREAT kissing is and there is no way to give that up and how sometimes all I really want is a good ol' "high school" make out session.....gosh - there is just something about a kiss! It's my favorite :) So much emotion, so much connection and of course you can tell so much about someone by how they kiss.....and mostly in how they kiss YOU! (sometimes we wanna know and sometimes, we choose to ignore it - but regardless....the signs are all there....all in that one moment....the kiss!)
Last night - my 14 year old son proceeds to give ME dating advice (this was unsolicited advice let me point out!)......yes I'm the MOM and he's telling ME what I'm doing wrong! HILARIOUS - but for some reason, this morning, all I can focus on is: what AM I doing wrong??? or is it as simple as I just haven't met the right person yet!?
Maybe so - but now once again - I'm thinking about people I have dated and some of them I'm kicking myself over!!!! But the good news is - the older I get the easier it is to see through the crap.... so although I have kissed some frogs - I'm REALLY good at picking out the frogs now BEFORE kissing them! ha ha *well ok - sometimes I just wanna kiss a frog! ;-)*
However - getting to the point here......
Today - I'm feeling a little sappy and I have somehow stumbled upon an old Collin Raye video.......I haven't thought about this song in forever - but MAN is it a good squishy song!!! The video is attached and yes - it is some sappy crap from a soap opera (Honestly though - can you EVER see too much of Jason from General Hospital??) BUT - as I was watching the video and listening to the words of the song - I realized......I've wasted too many kisses on frogs!
now...thinking about giving up kissing anyway......
cause I wanna hold out for this!!
That ONE person that holds the kiss that just knocks you off your feet?!! That one kiss where you can feel the passion and the emotion on both sides. That one person that shows you for the first time that there IS another person on the planet that actually can't imagine life without you?!?!
I'm a realist - I know that this is not something that happens every day - but I am a bit of a romantic dangit.. and I WANT someone to kiss me like there is no tomorrow!!!
I'm usually not much of a "squishy" kinda girl... I'm usually as hard (and a wee bit jaded) as they come.... but today - just for a little while (prompted by a string of events over the past few days) I'm just gonna be sappy!
enjoy the video! :)
AND if you have had that one kiss.... please do share.... so I can have somthing to look forward to! ha ha
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