So.... there's this boy... {WARNING: The following post series MAY induce vomiting!}

so....... there's this boy......
yeah - me - I said that!
THAT is how I started the conversation with my mom  :)

I love my mom - I know how tired she must be of all the losers that come into my life.  And every loser begins with "so.... I met this boy...."   My poor dad, he doesn't even pay attention anymore... nor does he bother caring to get to know anyone.  Not because he's heartless...Not because he doesn't care...I'm sure my dad has at some point thought to himself that I will NEVER find anyone.  NOT that there aren't dates, but more that no one is ever good enough.  Not just by his standards but mostly by MY standards!
I have waited 33 years (so far) for this man - I won't settle!  So I push away and don't let people in.  I don't trust...blah blah blah....I HAVE WALLS.

Now - are you ready for this????   THIS is where it gets good!  (go ahead....stick your finger down your throat...I know I know....)
THIS has been the bestest Thanksgiving ever!  =)
So................ there's this boy  {Part One}

I won't begin with ALL the details about how freaking GREAT he is (not yet....but I will.... just you wait... cause he IS GREAT!)
Anyway - we actually went to high school together.  So I knew him.... ran into him recently.  Chatted on facebook etc, he started reading my blog (Hi Adam! {wink}) and here is where the story gets good.  A few weekends ago I agreed to meet him and his daughter for bowling  (she is 7 and the sweetest, cutest little thing you've ever seen).  So I went....with no real intentions of anything other than hanging out.  (remember, I don't let people in...)  In fact, I had plans later that night to meet up with a friend to see a movie  (Blind Side - remember that blog)  Anyway... we bowled and he invited me to dinner with them (he had also invited another couple along for bowling and dinner)  I declined the invitation... I already had plans. {insert big HUGE walls around me HERE}   BUT before we could get out the door, I had changed my mind  :)  So - I meet them and we all have dinner together.  (watching him with his little girl....well.... I can't even describe it.  I'm a big daddy's girl - there is just something special about father-daughter relationships and man do they have a great relationship....)  Dinner was good....and we parted ways.  I met my friend at the movies and told her about my night.  Something changed by the end of that night.  couldn't put my finger on it...but something.
Nothing was different with my attitude though.... still behind the walls and looking for nothing more than friendship.

Now.....after that night we proceeded to chat via text or facebook or phone of whatever every day.  No biggie, didn't think much of it....but insert Thanksgiving holiday now.  Right?!?!  (are you gagging yet?  no?  you will be!)  The Wednesday before Thanksgiving I met him out at a local restaraunt.  Lots of friends with him when I got there.... but soon they were all gone and it was just us.  There was a band playing.  It was loud.  So to be able to hear each other, we were sitting in chairs side by side, but facing each other and would occassionally have to lean forward to talk into the other's ear.  WELL.........HERE WE GO!  That's it.  Done.  Over for me......  At some point during this night... a brick fell off my wall.  And all of a sudden......I REEEEALLY wanted to kiss this boy  ;-)  {how the heck did THAT happen?}  We hung out the rest of the night........talking, laughing, even went to Waffle House afterwards.  We didn't finally part ways until about 4AM.  Keep in mind, this is the Wednesday before Thanksgiving.  I have family plans the next day and he - well HE had very important plans the next day to provide Thanksgiving dinner for those that had no where else to go.  As I began driving home that night I could not stop smiling.  just sayin......could NOT stop smiling!!!! 
But still - a little guarded, and having NO idea where this had come from or why OR if it was real.  All I knew at that point, on that night is this:  this one was different.  Bricks were falling all around me and I couldn't stop it.  HELLO - get back up there... that's my protection!
BUT I COULD NOT STOP SMILING.  and I'm pretty sure when I wasn't looking - I was knocking those bricks down  ;-)

The story just gets better and better....I promise....stay tuned for Thanksgiving   =)

Some days are harder than others....

I try really hard every day to get up and put on my smiley face to face the world, but some days are harder than others.  Yesterday was mentally, emotionally and physically harder than I have had in a long time.  Well, this entire week has been pretty draining overall, but yesterday might have just been the breaking point for me.
So - early this morning I started this post.  It was full of whining and crying and moaning and groaning about how terrible my week has been and how HORRIBLE yesterday was most of all.
But then I remembered how much I hate whiners.  They just annoy the crap out of me.
So - instead of going on and on about all the CRAP I've been through this week - I decided instead to make a list of all the things that I am THANKFUL for in my life!
When you have a really bad day - it's the best thing you can do for yourself.  So many times we get overwhelmed and take the good things in life for granted!  Today - I'm making myself take the time.

1.  My son  (he's my little lifesaver and has no idea.)
2.  My and my son's good health  (got my flu shot today too - yay me!)  *bonus:  no piggie flu in my house!*
3.  My wonderful parents who are still around and ALWAYS there when I need them!
4.  My 2 wonderful brothers and their respective wife & fiance.... all of which I love with all my heart!
5.  The best friends that a girl could ever ask for...and lots of them.
6.  My job (though I hate it some days, I'm lucky to still have one)
7.  The opportunity and ability to still be going to school and still 33 years later, fighting to better myself
8.  A roof over my head
9.  A vehicle in good working order to get me where I need to go
10.  My iPhone (ha ha ha haaaaaa - what can I say - I love it!)
11.  My church and my pastor (a true man of God and who reminds me how to get back when I get lost.)
12.  Those special people that you come across in life that unknowingly touch you and never even know it.

I could go on and on and on........but I'm already smiling and thanking God for all the good things in my life!
I hope this makes you smile and reminds you how lucky we all really are   =)
HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!